"There is beauty in every incident of life; the true and the false, the wise and the foolish, are all one in the eye that beholds all without passion or prejudice: and the secret appears to lie not in the retirement from the world, but in keeping a part of oneself Vestal, sacred, intact, aloof from that self which makes contact with the external universe...And the art of doing this is really the art of being an artist. As a rule, it is a birthright; it may perhaps be attained by prayer and fasting; most surely, it can never be bought."
~ Aleister Crowely
I was moved by this piece of writing, and your words reminded of this quote. You are an artist, it's a gift no matter how it hurts.
When I am sad, it is always love and innocence that makes me cry too.