Andrea Juillerat-Olvera is a scholar and thinker creating on a multitude of levels. Her writing is informed by daily exposure to a broad range of learning environments and time spent living abroad.
a black hole that I keep in my pocket
the fight to hold oneself separate and sacred
above that which feels and hurts
I do not know how
save for the teaching of black mornings
paramecium moving of its own accord
ducks
repellent and perverse
diving through mock and mud
no books can teach this
we must come to it ourselves
see that there is a truth to be had
perhaps emerge strong and whole
clear-eyed
straight-tongued
but for the rest… I don’t know how to take the thorn from their side the knives from their hands the blinds from…
a poem
Skeletons gather beneath my feet
dead rattle the land
as it succumbs to cheatgrass
red shot through white quartz
all things frozen
lust for sun.
Shoulders bare
my arms fly across the water
of ancient lakes I beseech
the earth to turn us toward a better time
when we do not fall as forgotten leaves
when the torrent becomes a watershed
we will grieve our crystalline visions?
A red stone means the mountain loves me each one a mineral kiss Noon serpent and his tongue tasting the day’s cloudy eye sage scented memories line my pockets as I…
When I wore the desert like a brown skin
darting about in a tiny dress
I collided with a brightly feathered bird named John
fishnets and lipstick
that never stayed put
the endless stream of
white buttered bread
sleazy eggs
fried in the fat of the bacon
and of course
bacon
crispy
we would eat this every day.
Snorting cocaine
blasting out large-scale
abstract paintings
raving about alien technology and 1970s porn
“a real artist”
thought 19-year-old me
wide-eyed dripping in fascination.
Marijuana kink talk chain-smoking cross-dressing obsessed by flesh-colored nylons tourist town diva he copulated with his canvasses invoking…
I dream of the Pearl Queen
alone with her scent
orchid honey blood
painted toenails
perfect
deadlifting side-eye
flat on her back
a feast of coastal fancies
blade of Chardonnay
she crowns foolish people
with beads of warm light.
White rose cat
hair of gossamer clouds
who fell from the guf
with sky swept eyes
long straight nose
she is the mother of deer come to life
ocean’s daughter
on the shore of platinum geometry
born in the pulse of a decrepit diamond
hidden in the fullness of sight.
Throwing bits and bytes back and forth our mental fingertips graze…
Tristen dancer
fire waif
the threads of our lives
woven close
like two sails on the same ship
savaged by the same storm
how did we become entangled?
In the dream
parts and debris
a blossom of impact
at the base of the cliff
your island elixir landed on my tongue
asleep in Seattle
our thoughts entwined
action at a distance
my bewilderment
unfolding years later
eyes made to see.
Tenderly unaware
how I was jealous of you
your tongues of magic
heart throbbing purple as the bruise of night
quantum elegance
born out in every angle of your face.
…
Before the hedonistic daybreak
youthful revelries carried her
across the Mexican border
without identification
and less than twenty dollars.
Dancing feet floated from bar to bar
shot glasses falling like dominoes
tequila, her only puppet master
carousing with long-dead spirits
the way home elusive
deferred.
Night tears the page of day to pieces
a litter of demon pups in pursuit
nipping at her heels
onto her scent
until
delirious at the gate
she antes up
prepared to go all-in
her smile an opening bid.
In the booth, he flexes and flashes tattooed bicep badge and gun she mentally fucks him…
Interpreter, Teacher, Artist.